Lately, I've been really thinking on my priorities. I do this a lot. I've talked about it a lot, I write in my journal about it a lot--
I'm constantly deciding, redefining, and contemplating on what's really important and if I'm using my time well. That's just me. It's part of my mental situation.
I've talked about this before. I'm beating a dead horse. Forgive me for that.
I've also blogged about my efforts to cut down on my interwebs time. To make a long story short, (too late),
not many years ago, I was a mom with really young kids, and I was lonely, and I lived in other states and didn't know anyone, had no car, and the hubs worked insane hours. So I was bored. I didn't have a house I owned to decorate-- I was just wiping noses and bums and making mac and cheese and sweeping and playing megablocks and coloring and reading books and that was my day.
And my "me" time was to sneak away from my toddlers and check my email. And then I was checking blogs. Or reading news articles. And then it was facebook or whatever else was an escape.
And pretty soon I was an internet addict. Seriously peeps, this is a real thing. Maybe you're an addict and you know it, (or you don't know it until you take this test) and I'm 100% positive you'll know plenty of people around you who are addicted.
Let's find out, shall we? Yes, lets.
(FYI: this test is on a 1-5 scale, 1 being rarely and 5 being often. Take the entire test here. I'm just choosing a few out of the 20 questions to make my point and not be redundant.)
Internet Addiction Test (excerpts)
1. How often do you find that you stay on-line longer than you intended?
(I dare someone to not answer "often" to that question)
2. How often do you neglect household chores to spend more time on-line?
5. How often do others in your life complain to you about the amount of time you spend on-line?
(Kids used to. Check. Double check.)
7. How often do you check your e-mail before something else that you need to do?
8. How often does your job performance or productivity suffer because of the Internet?
11. How often do you find yourself anticipating when you will go on-line again?
(This is me no longer. But used to be big time.)
13. How often do you snap, yell, or act annoyed if someone bothers you while you are on-line?
14. How often do you lose sleep due to late-night log-ins?
15. How often do you feel preoccupied with the Internet when off-line, or fantasize about being on-line?
(I feel uncomfortable with the use of the word "fantasize".)
16. How often do you find yourself saying “just a few more minutes” when on-line?
(Um, hello-- everyone.)
17. How often do you try to cut down the amount of time you spend on-line and fail?
18. How often do you try to hide how long you’ve been on-line?
19. How often do you choose to spend more time on-line over going out with others?
And if this was my test? And it's not? I would add the question:
"Is the first thing you do when waking up is to check your email, facebook, or other social media site before doing anything else?"
Kay. So. How'd you do? If you answered "often" to most of these, according to this test, you already have an internet addiction.
Hello. My name is Mandi and I had an internet addiction. And I still have a few problems that I'd like to work on. (Check my email before anything else, read too many news articles. . . )
You don't need to hear all my thoughts on what should be a top priority in my life, but just know, that all summed up, it looks mostly like this:
3. Everything else takes a back seat and who really cares 'cause it's a jumbled mess
Like I said, I still have a slight interwebs problem. But I've made big strides. I don't sneak away to check stuff-- my kids don't think I have my face glued to a screen half the day (whether it be computer, iPad, or smart phone), and my actual sit down at the computer time is now almost nonexistent.
But I have an iPad, so it's not like I don't get internet time. Or Candy Crush time, for that matter.
Why am I even bringing this up? I have a point here. I think.
Despite my efforts to keep things simple, I am more busy now as a mom then I ever was with toddlers. And I've been warned it only gets worse as they get older.
No computer time makes my Pinterest time basically nil, I'm a bad email responder, and a terrible blogger. And I have no idea how or where being a blog reader or a blogger fits in my life right now. I feel confused. Directionless. You are Luke Skywalker, and you can feel the conflict within me.
If you are a healthy internet user and have found your own personal limits, what do you do? How do you do it? I'm apparently an all or nothing kind of gal.
my blog has always been important to me. I like to write. I like to take pictures. I like to mould things and build crappy things. I just don't know where it fits in, how often to actually sit at the computer and blog it out, and where to go from here.
Bear with me. Please stand by.